I'm Jennifer Knepper. But everyone really calls me Jen. Knepper, with a silent K. Don't go around calling me Jen Kuh-nepper or anything or I might have to cut you. With a Kuh-nife.
Jennepper = Jen Knepper all crammed together. I should have made my blog title and my domain the same but I didn't. Good decision making, right there.
Adventures in marital bliss...
In 2006, I married Mark. We met on Match.com, back when people thought that was weird or for losers. Perhaps you still think that it is weird or for losers. We are weird AND losers so I suppose you are doubly right. Yay you!
|Just a couple of weird losers.|
March 18, 2006
Photo Credit: Noble Images
Adventures in infertility and moron management...
We decided to start trying for kids right away. Like all young people, we assumed that our reproductive organs were so awesome that we would immediately create the most radical, world-altering pregnancy.
A year and a half later, we would come to find that we were struggling with Male Factor Infertility. Clomid, Intrauterine Insemination (IUI), and In Vitro Fertilization (IVF) with ICSI would become our favorite texting acronyms. Because being an adult can be so fun!
An IUI, two fresh IVFs, and an FET later, we had some pretty awesome kids, thanks to Dr. Goldfarb (formerly of Cleveland Clinic, now of University Hospitals in Cleveland).
You should know that if I ever end up in jail? It is because I assaulted someone who told me that I would get pregnant as soon as I relaxed. You know, "Maybe If You Just Relax." Relaxing doesn't make babies, people. Dirty hot sex or stone cold science? Those make babies.
Adventures in pregnancy and parenting...
My first fresh IVF failed, but my second was a success. This is Olivia. As I write this, she is almost 4 and totally sassy. She loves Beyonce, all things Disney Princess, jamming to her Hello Kitty radio, and carbs. Lots of carbs.
|Olivia Audrey Knepper|
August 2012, 3.5 Years
Photo Credit: Photography by Val
Aside from Gestational Diabetes and a brush with Preeclampsia at the end, I had a really easy pregnancy and delivery with Olivia.
When Olivia was one, we decided that we were ready to add to our family again. Luckily, we had frozen embryos left and we were able to use them. We were thrilled and shocked (mostly shocked) to learn that I was pregnant with identical twins. Girls.
There was a lot of drama - disparity in growth, a brain that just didn't look right, a heart that just didn't look right - and preeclampsia again. This time, it was bad enough to land me in the hospital at 31 weeks with a planned c-section at 32 weeks. The night before my planned c-section, we lost one of the twins.
Evelyn Cecille suffered a fetomaternal hemorrhage and her sister, Ainsley Laura, was at risk because of the way that identical twins are connected in utero. So we delivered them that night, December 29, 2010. Evelyn asleep and Ainsley small and fighting.
Ainsley went directly to the NICU at Akron Children's Hospital, where she lived for 16 months. She had some pretty shitty lungs and was diagnosed with Bronchopulmonary Dysplasia, and later, Pulmonary Hypertension. She was ventilator dependent and had a trach to help her breathe, and a G-Tube for all feedings and meds.
Ainsley's MO: Do awesome! Get sick. Get really sick. Rock bottom. Get better. Do awesome! Get sick. Get really sick. Rock bottom. Get better. Do awesome! Etc. Always cute, though. She was always smiling even when she felt awful.
Ainsley loved her mommy and daddy and nurses, splashing in the bath, making everyone clap and smile, playing with ID badges, and dancing to her musical toys.
|Ainsley Laura Knepper|
May 2012, 16 Months
Photo Credit: My Scratched Up iPhone
Adventures in being a cautionary tale...
When Ainsley was 9 months old, I had a weird random barfing incident. A few rounds of counting on my fingers and I was off to Target to buy a pregnancy test. Which was positive. Between working full-time, visiting Ainsley at the hospital every day, and taking care of Olivia, I managed to "relax" enough to get KTFU. (Knocked the fuck up. Because I am classy.) No fertility treatments for this one - I'm not that crazy.
On May 12, 2012, Ainsley passed away in our arms after a long and brave fight with her chronic lung disease. On May 29, 2012, Adelle Sophia was born.
|Adelle Sophia Knepper|
December 2012, 7 months
Photo Credit: My Nikon DSLR that I have no idea how to use.
Adventures in being a lady of leisure...
After Ainsley died and Adelle was born, I decided that I needed to take some time off from work. I never aspired to be a stay at home mom, but I just felt like I couldn't go back. Financially it worked, so I quit my job in the retirement services industry to become a Lady of Leisure and now I have all kinds of free time for activities.
HA! Just kidding. I barely have time to pee or brush my hair.
I hope you enjoy my blog. I'm sorry about all of the cussing.